The Future ?

I have recently heard that I will join the military and I have no thoughts on it except for the training as that will be the hardest part. The time I've spent on the earth will have a purpose but there may be doubt. I think that it is just a way to get away from me but when given an order I follow. The day I leave I will not acknowledge thanks but disappointment. The disappointment that I will never be anything but another soldier waiting to kill. That was the mentality that I grew up with, the joy to not make my decisions, the fear of questioning others. I was taught not to think and I think that was the best Idea. Inside I'm laughing when I write this, I remember when I was asked a retorical question I would say I think... They would say your not supposed to think. What is life without thought? Perfection? We'll see.

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Quotes

Hate must make a man productive. Otherwise one might as well love. ~Karl Kraus


All men kill the thing they hate, too, unless, of course, it kills them first. ~James Thurber


Hatred is one long wait. ~René Maran

If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us. ~Herman Hesse

End discrimination. Hate everybody. ~Elle Eden


A loving heart heals hate. ~Jareb Teague

From the deepest desires often come the deadliest hate. ~Socrates

My favorite Poet Speaks On Love

We loved with a love that was more than love. ~Edgar Allan Poe

My love life

The butterfly flys
The lion lays
The living lies
walking to you is a dream
why do you smile
you talk to me
my hopes rise
I wait a while
you say:
I want him
he is cool

I say yea he is
I die
I say see you another day

ANOTHER DAY
Another girl
walking to you is a dream
why do you smile
I see the angel in you
She comes by me
my hopes rise
she's just looking for something
I hide all my feelings

ANOTHER DAY
Another girl
walking to you is a dream
why do you smile
I hear you talk of life
I see you laugh
In my mind
my hopes rise
the girl looks at me
and walks away

THE LAST DAY
the question arises
why

THE NEXT DAY
she looks at me
I walk away.

The poem

The love
the smile
the tears
my fears
all a lie

Save Me.......Save Me........Save Me.......Why?????Why????Why???? You left me to suffer you left me to grow Did you see everyday I suffer I can't remember the first time my feelings mixed but I know it is going to ruin me. All of you see an average kid but have you ever questioned why I don't show my opinions of you. I will express them one day and you won't like it. I suffer I cry inside because I am lost and you left me to die. The time will come one day when you realize that experience doesn't always make you smart. Time will show how we will emerge but why is the only question in my mind. We are taught to ask questions but discouraged by the people who can answer them and this has caused my confusion and hatred. I wish to say that I hate but I don't not enough to make any difference. All there is is a shell that has no goal, no ambition ,no anything, All I have is the orders you provide AND THE FEELING OF TIREDNESS.